I have vivid childhood memories of rising early on Sunday mornings, ambling down the stairs into the kitchen to find my mom at the counter with a piping hot cup of joe, my dad in the joint living room grading English essays with his glasses halfway down his nose. The quiet buzz of jazz music was always playing in the background. Sometimes I’d awake to donuts and bagels from the local bakery and other times my dad would whip up scrambled eggs with ham and toast with butter. I would stay in my pajamas all morning, sitting in front of the screen door, basking in the incoming rays of sunlight to warm my cold body from sleep.
These mornings were slow, and at the time I did nothing but complain of my boredom. Reflecting on these moments presently, I long for the relaxed sunrises of my childhood, where there was nothing on the agenda aside from watching early morning cartoons. As the saying goes, hindsight is always 20/20.
I am uncovering the veracity of this adage little by little as the years pass. In one of my favorite memoirs, When Breath Becomes Air, the author quotes a famous philosopher who sagely stated that only the first twenty years of life are actually living. The rest is spent in retrospect. This idea is astonishing to me, and I find that I can relate to this more now that I’m older. It is easy to do something and move on. As the wise John Lennon once said, “living is easy with eyes closed.” The real challenge is looking back and learning/questioning/asking about how and why you did these things. Every moment in life changes and shapes us into our authentic selves.
But being your true self doesn’t mean being perfect. It means laughing lots and talking your heart out to your closest friends and family. It means singing at the top of your lungs to your favorite song on your way to school or work in the morning. It means eating that extra delicious cookie dough brownie your mom made because you know that it’s good for your soul. It means opening up your eyes to all of the world and embracing all of the rewards and hardships that come with this crazy thing called life. And sometimes all you have to do to experience those things is plop down in front of your screen door and bask in the warm sunny rays while eating a donut. Easy like Sunday morning.
- 4 oz cream cheese
- ½ cup greek yogurt
- pinch of salt
- 2 tbsp fresh dill or 1 tsp dried
- 2 scallions, chopped
- ¼ tsp garlic powder
- Everything bagels
- Preheat oven to 350 F.
- Spray a muffin tin with nonstick spray and crack eggs into the muffin cavitites.
- Bake eggs until the whites are set but the yolk is still slighly soft, about 15 minutes.
- While the eggs are baking, combine all of the ingredients for the cream cheese in a bowl.
- To assemble the sandwiches, slather the cream cheese on a toasted everything bagel with an egg cup on top.
- Eat up!